Happy break everyone! Though I have mentally checked out for six days, it's time for me to get back into the swing of studying, so the majority of my break will be spent in the library or something like that. I'll probably see a few friends but I really plan on spending time w/ everyone during break. So, just an FYI, I guess (:

Buuut anyways, I watched Inception for the first time earlier today. Ahhhh. My mind's still turning from the movie but I'd say it was good. I don't think it was astounding or the best movie ever but maybe that's because I have to watch it again & again or something. Loved the effects but something about it didn't quite satisfy me, overall though the plot was written very well.

Today I have once again eaten the worst foods ever & called it a "meal" but I'll have the next few days at home to detox. However, I finally have informatics done! It only took me a 2.5 hours but that was also in part to Chris, Matt, & the librarian so thank all of you for that (:

So in the spirit of Thanksgiving, here's what I'm thankful for:

1) An incredibly strong network of friends. You guys have really picked me up when I was down & I can't believe all the support that I've been given from those I leaned on & those who I never expected to reach out.

In specifics: My close friends because they've been through the ugly, seen the less desirable, continue to stand by me, & have even helped me through everything.

2) My family.

-I'm so extremely thankful that I'm able to celebrate another

year w/ my dad

-For the motivation, flipped perspective, & humbleness I get

because of my mom

-Andrew well...being Andrew, hahah. The brother he's always

been (:

-All of my cousins, aunts, & uncles that I miss so much.

3) Finally coming to terms w/ myself & finding inner peace.

4) New beginnings

5) Blankets

6) My running shoes

I am now ready for two back to back days of Asian thanksgiving (:

"Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end"- Semisonic (Closing Time)

We say that everything happens for a reason, it's part of a bigger picture that fate or some higher being has in store for us.

Is this really true or is it bull we say to console ourselves & justify the situation so we can move on & adapt accordingly?

Anyways, I'm enjoying spending time w/ Vanya at State, it's been a good weekend so far! Trying to focus on studying (as I have been trying since the Patho exam), I've already done more than I have the past three days combined...all I've done is gone through 3/4 of the biostats lecture writing down definitions, shows you how productive I've been.

Buuuut I got my highest grade of my grad school career thus far Wed of an 86%! Discluding med terminology, bc let's face it, scoring 100% on what "diarrhea" etc isn't that hard. Lolol man do I miss my As in undergrad.

Oxymoron?

Is it strange that as I'm reading my dosage book which is talking about new ways to treat previously incurable cancers, I'm thinking about how many more lives that saves, which means more resources, which means overpopulation, which could eventually mean the destruction of the human race as we use up nonrenewable sources & turn against one another (provided we don't develop the technology to find other sustainable sources)?

^ Run on sentence at its finest.

But really, I wonder how many diseases & conditions exist because we as a human race have interrupted natural selection. We have the capacity to delay/fight off death which is great, I know I'm personally grateful for the technology that exists today (& maybe w/o it, I wouldn't be around to write about it). But, I'm curious to the degree of some of our diseases & if their existence/extent is because we 'saved' individuals who should have died to reproduce & pass along their faulty genes.

I guess that second part didn't really go into world overpopulation etc but that's what I was really getting that. Is it ironic that I'm thinking about this stuff when I'm studying for a profession meant to save people's lives through the use of drug therapies? Hmm.

"What did the man say when he walked into the bar?....Ouch!" HAH. not.

I need to start remembering when my mom gives me bananas; by the time I stumble across them they're always overripe.

Time is Running Out - Papa Roach

I removed the survey that I posted last night because it was really just a way to pass the time & no one's going to read it.

Anyways, today was an interesting day: took my biochem exam, ran over to main campus to present my poster at the Undergrad Research Conference for the grant I got over the summer, bought a $90 textbook (depressing), awkward times at the Health Clinic (I went w/ Jim, I thought he was going to get a flu shot or something; he was actually buying condoms. They totally thought we were doing each other), took another nap at the UGL, got dinner, & hung out w/ Zach for a little.

It was also a day for being offered rides, I must have missed the memo.

Encounter One: walking from my class to my car this white minivan stops me & I hear this guy asking if I "know where Joy Rd is." I say no & take a look at the two oh so classy wiggers w/ the backwards fitted & tattoos all over their arms & hands who possibly just got done smoking some crack as their lips had a white tint to it & no offense, but they looked like junkies. They respond w/ "oh, okay. Thanks. Do you need a ride somewhere?"

Encounter Two: walking from the conference to the UGL I pass a grounds maintenance crew & I make eye contact w/ a late 40something-ish worker. We make small talk as I pass by, a minute later I hear "do you want a ride anywhere?" Looking to my right I see said worker in one of those two seater John Deere smart car-golf cart hybrid hahaha

For the record, I turned down both offers but I thought it was funny that I was offered two rides in one day, which is the most I've been offered ever from strangers. If they had only said 'free candy'. Their loss.

You know, overall, today was full of creepers. Like stick guy from freshman year, he was at the conference as a guest & came over to talk & still remembered my name & everything, I was super surprised.

Every time our fridge turns on (as in the cooling kicks in) its moves. Hah.

So, the weekend plans are to study for dosage & patho. Mostly patho because I need to kill this exam, dosage I need to focus on too. Fun times ahead.

There are times when I like knowing when things will end (such as class) but I hate timestamps on relationships. I know there's usually an expiration date on each one we get into but it usually doesn't reveal itself until later on in the game when things start to go bad (like C. tetani in canned foods....I can't believe I just said that either, I'm such a nerd.) & I was asked if all but one relationship fails in some one's life (assuming he/she gets marries) then why date at all since the odds are against you?

For me, dating is all about the process of figuring out what qualities you like/dislike, what you expect out of a relationship, learning about yourself in a way that's only possible through interactions like this, & the general experience. When does the point come when 'this one's just another stepping stone for the real deal' to the 'real deal'?

I have turned into a girl.

Mm sleep

Gotta love daylight savings time...more time to study!

Don't worry, I've already given up my 'cool' card

All things considered, a good day: got some laundry done, pretty productive in biochem, hung out w/ some friends in Royal Oak & got hot chocolate & Astoria, did some yoga. What would make my day complete is playing some piano...

Revised: daylight savings time...more time to play piano! (:

It's been one of those days

First off, I'm not one for complaining & I always enjoy laughing at how much I fail or the bad luck I have.

Today, however, is an exception.

It feels like I'm a house of cards; there's a bunch of stuff going on that normally wouldn't be a back breaker in itself but they've been piling on top of one another and that last card needed to bring down the house was just added. I'm emotionally & mentally exhausted

Time to keep moving