St. Elmo's Fire - John Parr

Haiti bound in less than half an hour! Well, to the airport at least. Hope my check in bag isn't over 50lbs. So excited!

Fast As You Can - Fiona Apple

Okay, I can do this. Last exam of the semester in 4.5 hours. Have to memorize all equations, treatment algorithms, diagnosing tables, and monitoring parameters. I will be at the airport in less than 24 hours. Almost....there....

What It's Like - Everlast

This...is bizarre: http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-204_162-57557563/gretchen-molannens-suicide-spotlights-debilitating-effects-of-persistent-genital-arousal-disorder/

Good luck on finals everyone & happy graduation to those finishing up this semester!

Take You There - Sean Kingston

http://www.detroitnews.com/article/20121204/BIZ/212040424/Ilitch-seeks-downtown-Detroit-arena-district?odyssey=mod%7Cbreaking%7Ctext%7CFRONTPAGE

How nice would this be.
End of semester prep + Haiti planning. Go!

Grind with Me - Pretty Ricky

Now I'm not hating on this guy's music because I haven't had the chance, but who names their kid Phillip Phillips?

On Love, In Sadness - Jason Mraz

Oh Detroit Lions, you will be the death of me. I really should have learned by this season's performance to hope for the best & expect the worst instead of thinking that we'll win.

One More Try - George Michael

I've had this song stuck in my head for days now.
Anyways, how busy it's been lately! First endocrine exam, a lovely weekend spent in Grand Rapids, & the Great American Smoke Out all within the last week. It's a little strange but w/ all the organizing, emailing, & general work I've been doing for the GASO, working, & getting everything in order for my upcoming trip to Haiti (less than a month!!), I've found that I really feel the best about myself when I'm studying. Maybe because I know I'm not doing nearly enough. Dopaminergic reward pathway going real hard. If only I didn't dig myself in a hole, hopefully I can claw my way out of 19 hours behind lecture between today & tomorrow.
So I'm thankful for is getting a long weekend to prepare for impending doom - jk. Tryptophan, sleeping, & good times to be had w/ the books, can't wait!

In case I don't get a chance to post what I'm really thankful for on the actual day here's a short man version. I'm thankful for another year w/ my wonderful dad, a supportive family who loves in their own way, & lastly the joy & experiences each day brings. Have a safe & happy Thanksgiving!

Madness - Muse

Only one of the two Muse songs I like. Really catchy. Anyways, if you're voting, especially in Michigan, please make informed decisions about our proposals. Information can be found here:
http://www.freep.com/article/99999999/NEWS15/120928076
I'd stay away from the analysis because they seem to be biased (but what really isn't in journalism nowadays?)

Edit: When multiple politicians have left Congress & state on camera they did so out of frustration to the ineffectiveness of the Senate/House or because their parties were only concerned w/ putting down the other team, things have gone too far. It's laughable that people blame actions or stipulate that the other opponent will do this & they'll do this to counteract it when nothing changes. What are the major political issues that seem to constantly dominate the headlines? Budget, naturally, defense, okay, and....gay marriage? Planned Parenthood? There aren't bigger things to be spending time & resources on than what 'marriage' or 'civil union' is & isolating people? The system is deadlocked by people who are more interested in their paychecks & holding pissing matches than actually caring out our country. We have people in office who simply shouldn't be. It's alarming how fast the country is going down the shitter. We need people who are willing to work w/ everyone, to compromise, put aside differences, & get things done that's good for future generations. We need mature people who don't necessarily agree w/ each other, but can for the most part respect each other. How else is anything going to really, truly, change? It's absolutely ridiculous that we have a 'movement' where people are so willing to buy into the hatred & prejudices they feel. What's worse is knowing that people buy into this crap, they'll vote blindly because of all these stirred up feelings. Hiding behind a ballot of racism and intolerance. This isn't just at a national level but at a local level. Troy's mayor, the Sterling Heights councilman. Apalling. Please, everyone, please make the effort to make informed decisions. I don't care if you vote Democratic, Republican, independent, whatever. If you don't vote, that's not a problem w/ me. Just no whimsical checkmarks at the polls. Please. This might be too optimistic but maybe w/ one elected official at a time we as the general public can start to trust politicians again.
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On another level, I just saw an ad on TV set in Beijing about how America fell because they owned our debt & demonized the Chinese. Really, people? Yeah let's just blame our fiscal irresponsibility on the foreigners instead holding our citizens, the people who are supposed to serve our country & hold our best interests in mind, & big corporations accountable. Pathetic.

Can't wait for all the polarizing ads to disappear in a few days. Tactics by every single organization or political group is all about smearing & inducing anger to manipulate people to try to achieve what they want, it's despicable.


End of soap box rant.

Boys of Summer - The Ataris

Lessons learned from my Halloween experience in Greektown: if all the other bars are crowded, it means you should stay away from the one that isn't crowded. Persistent creeps & trashy folk will be abound. Great running into so many familiar faces & making new friends! I'm also so thankful we weren't the only ones dressed up as something other than a Tigers fan (hah, joke).

We played our last club soccer game this afternoon at OU! So many memories driving around its campus w/ my parents, even practicing how to park when I got my permit back in the day. Though we lost, 3-1, there are a few things of note to say about the game & our season: 1) the refs took a day off     2) we played together really well  3) both teams had great sportsmanship  4) we played ridiculously well for only having one practice a week  4) I have never enjoyed myself in an official organized soccer team as this one, it was great playing w/ competitive people who wanted to win but would never be rude or get down on each other. Great experience & I hope to be around next fall!
Also, yours truly finally scored a goal. Ironically, I wasn't playing forward when it happened because I was messing up so much. Yeah!...?
Second soccer game of the day coming up at 9:40pm. Thankfully it's indoors; it should be a great time even if we lose, I've missed the midtown team! Not to mention co-ed soccer and the pace of indoor games.

On a completely different thought, it feels great to return something & see that money appear in your bank statement again. Yay!

Also, the Lions won! Even though I only caught the 4th quarter, they looked a lot better, especially Stafford.

Another thing that I forgot to mention. The Faberge exhibit at the DIA is gorgeous & absolutely worth the $15 admission, I recommend it. Though it didn't into as much history behind Carl Faberge & the House of Faberge as I would have liked (which, there's always Wikipedia for), the detail of the objects are stunning. Really well put together.

Save Me - Joshua Verdes

An argument lots of people who are 'pro life' make against abortion is that if you're raped, you should still carry the baby but give it up for adoption.
How significant do you think the psychological impacts would be if you found out you existed because of a rape?

This isn't an everyday topic, I know. I found out recently that a classmate is adopted. Not saying she was a rape baby, but she did finally find out some information about her mom's side. I was just thinking about weird scenarios; this popped up & has been on my mind for the last day or so.

Always Something There - Naked Eyes

On an 80s kick today.
What a beautiful weekend it's been. Driving north on 75 is gorgeous time time of the year w/ the leaves alight w/ color plus sunny & warm fall days. Bonus. Definitely missed this last October when it was still super warm. Other than that, lots of seeing friends, relaxing, driving, sleeping in, seeing my parents, & finally doing everything I've been putting off. Egyptian lamb slaughter is by far the dumbest card game ever...unless you play it after Lafayette. Ready to lock in endocrinology, go time...tomorrow. Since you know, there was the P2 bowling fundraiser (my team was the best because they all did a victory dance), the Lions game now, & the presidential debate.

Heartbeat - Childish Gambino

Oh soccer, how I've missed you in my week hiatus. I understand that you might not be angry & not understand the reasons why I had to leave, but did you really have to make some one hit me in the face w/ a soccer ball today? Maybe I had it coming, it has been 14 years afterall since the last time it's happened. Regardless, we belong together. Like....something that goes together. Let's face it, I'm exhausted & have to study for neuro tomorrow. Home stretch!

Also, when I first heard this song, it didn't make a big impression on me but over time, it's grown on me. Like...gonorrhea? Nah.

Kiss Me - Sixpence None the Richer

26 hours up and counting...surprisingly I don't feel exhausted though I'm sure it's coming. How ironic it is that I'm staying up late studying for neuro & how a few lectures talk about the importance of rest, sleep hygiene, the manifestations of not sleeping, & what kinds of headaches you can get from lack of sleep. Nothing like experiencing first hand right?
Except for lack-of-sleep migraines, I'm pretty sure I'll pass on one of those.

I've found that I have a funny concept of time. I always like to plan things out so I can leave at the last possible minute to get from point A to B. If you know me, things almost always happen where I'm inevitably a few minutes late (even when I take factors like not being able to find my keys into account, go figure). Every second counts, especially when you're on your way to work & I try to squeeze every second out of it. With this mentality you'd think that I see a year as a long time w/ lots of opportunities. Wrong. I see a year as being short, a blink of an eye compared to the decades that most of us live. I see an hour as a tiny blip in time. However, a lot can happen in a second, especially when you allow one second to turn into another, because hey, what's an extra second going to do? Pretty soon, you've wasted an hour. The clock keeps moving. And I keep putting off outlining - the second to last barrier before I'll let myself sleep. Tick. Tick. Tick. How funny it is that I've spent my entire life telling myself that I need to seize opportunities and make the best of my time yet I also tell myself I have so much time...and I end up in situations like this. Where I have diarrhea of the mouth. Just kidding, but the whole procrastination bit. Gotta kick up the productiveness a little.

When Love is Gone - Diego Val

What a good feeling it is to be caught up w/ all the lectures as much as possible. Along w/ having no desire to to out on the weekend, I think this constitutes as being in full school mode. Too bad it kicked in on week 6 of the semester. Here's to studying hard & passing all the exams next week!

Domino - Jessie J

Dear exam gods,

Please please please give me the energy to study enough so I score over a 75% for the exam Wednesday.

Yours truly,

Dying P3

Sweet Caroline - Neil Diamond

Just to let everyone know reading, I don't mean this to offend anyone.

In studying disease states like depression, bipolar, & schizophrenia in our neurology module has me wondering what religious figureheads that were once (i.e. Jesus) would be diagnosed w/ in present society.


PS- why does Panera turn its A/C on in October when it's 40F degrees out? Silly management.

Ride to California - Paper Tongues

Ironically, relistening to a lecture on headaches is giving me one.

Also, I found a full episdoe of Mister Rogers' Neighborhood on YouTube, so many childhood memories. In retrospect the guy wasn't a great singer but I think it's still better than some of the stuff kids watch today.

How Sweet it is - James Taylor

Good night world, see you in a couple hours to continue cramming for neuro test two.

Also, I just figured out today is Sunday & not Monday. This means an extra 24 hours of studying. What a happy epiphany that was.

Wait for Me - Rise Against

No sleep for the wicked.
Or the busy.


Wicked = busy?

The Calling - Santana

Why are butts attractive but not butt cracks?

Listen - Beyonce

This is just pathetic on so many different levels:

1) I should be studying

2) I've played 173 games at this level

3) I have yet to win a game

4) This is the closest I've come to winning one.

Sad.

Bitch Bad - Lupe Fiasco

Oh bed/sleep, how I have missed you so. You know you're getting old when you're still tired after getting nine & a half hours of sleep (w/ four hours the night before).

No Labor Day trips/moving = less procrastination = better results for exam two.

Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey

Goals for the next five days include not getting injured at soccer practice, making time to go home to find my shower curtain/thermos/etc, getting a B on the Neuro exam (or simply passing it), get rid of some of the post move mess in my new apartment, & making sure I show restraint at Dally this year. Aaand, go.

Moondance - Van Morrison

Within the last week or so I've:
- gone to my first Lions game (yes, preseason still counts!)
- watched the Tigers beat the White Sox 7 to 4
- went to Windsor for a med school bar crawl; but more importantly tried poutine for the first time ever (fries w/ gravy. Mine had chicken, provolone cheese, mushrooms, & onions which was delicious)
- taken a road trip to NYC & realized how much I wish I lived in a functional big city that has a Chinatown (so many good, fresh, & cheap Asian cuisines other than Chinese. Amazing.)

The first exam is less than a week away what?

It's simply too early for class. My brain will now go back to sleep. Sweet dreams world.

Sugar Lumps - Flight of the Concords

An entirely obnoxious/ridiculous/inappropriate song, but hilarious. Definitely watch the music vid if you're going to check it out.

Just got back from my family vacation- six days divided between Grand Teton and Yellowstone National Park. The views on the hikes were so pretty, typical Western stuff you see in old paintings at Grand Teton. Of course, we saw all the incredible geysers, mud pots, hot springs at Yellowstone as well as taking a look at the canyon & the waterfall from all different sides. Not to mention catching the sunset. I know this is going to sound strange, but one of the things I loved the most was the airport. It's just a small building & that's probably why I enjoyed arriving/departing from there. There's no tunnel that takes you into the plane; instead you have to walk across the tarmac & climb a set of stairs to get inside. I guess I just like being places I don't usually get to go- this case being the asphalt where a plane could easily run some one over. Lots of turbulence on the plane but I didn't mind it. This is my first trip since I can probably remember where I haven't had a camera to take pictures but I know I made my brother & dad take some for me..yay?
Anyways, I thought the people watching was great & my brother & enjoyed it. Our two favorites were a little Japanese boy looking angry & upset sounding so indignant as he yelled out a wordless phrase pointing in the opposite direction that his dad was going in. Only cute when they're young. The other was a fmaily in front of us on a trail- the mother, father, & their sixish year old son were having an argument about how the mountains in Grand Teton formed. It was clear the mother was getting frustrated at both of them for arguing w/ her about erosion & sediments when just as we were passing them, the boy said, "Mom, just because you took three years of geology doesn't mean you know about every single mountain." In just words, that doesn't seem funny, but I'm always pretty bad at telling stories anyways. But it's more for my benefit to remember, right?
Another favorite story of mine was when I was in the bathroom & two women walk in after me. One of them remarks on how much toilet paper there is & I figure she's talking about the half used rolled strewn on the bathroom floor. They're joking around & one tells the other, "don't deny yourself the toilet paper!" After they come out they explain to me they had been camping for six days & normally wouldn't be so excited. I didn't really care anyways because it's definitely an exchange my best friend & I would have...except we'd have it even if we didn't camp at all.

Well, it's safe to say that summer is effectively over. I have less than three days to mentally prepare for the mental bloodbath of Monday. By that I mean one class that essentially runs from 8am-3pm w/ an hour break that will be taken up by a meeting. Go big or go home right?
It's probably the right time to reflect on the summer. But honestly, I'm more focused on the upcoming year & everything that I have to do. So to sum (hah hah, half pun) up these last few months, they've certainly been trying but I've learned a lot. I feel like I've lost & gained, but most importantly I've gotten become a little wiser of the world & work politics. I've grateful for all the experiences & I know they'll guide me well in the future.

Last thing- has anyone else noticed that almost all our sources of news in this country is full of trash? There's so much gossip it's ridiculous. World events are rarely focused on while pointless stories about actors' pets get a larger timeslot. Reporters clearly manipulate the way they deliver a story as well as anchors making comments to guide the watcher to the same position they decided. It's awful & another reason why I'm not bothered by the lack of a TV. Just about everything on the air is full of dumb reality shows- there are few programs that are educational, neutral, or informative anymore. Something I've been thinking about for a while as I ate my lunches in the break room but pretty much was confirmed when I watched the news w/ my parents over the last week.

Airport Security - Bouncing Souls

Yellowstone!

Looking forward to getting into the outdoors & recharging before the school year starts. Hopefully I can last another week of having absolutely nothing to do- it's really nice on one hand but on the other I'm going crazy.
The first hand is saying 'soon enough, my pretty.'
I'm weird. And tired.

Regardless, I'm looking forward to going to one of the places I've been wanting to visit since I was seven. Yeahyeahhh. First trip w/o a camera, I'll probably pawn off my brother for a few pics (:

Ordinary People - John Legend

I don't know how I haven't used this song as a post title yet, but anyways! A few happenings of note
1) I still miss the Canadians
2) It's the last week of my internship! Project presentations are in a few hours
3) My first DCFL season has ended, great job Midtown! Two wins & a last minute loss- literally. I had a great time playing & getting to know so many awesome people on & off my team that I can call friends now. Good stuff.
4) I need to stop my late night/junk food eating binges that I've been allowing for the last few days
5) There really isn't a number five, I just wanted to make one (:

Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison

Wow, back in Detroit. It kinda feels surreal to be back but it also feels like I haven't left. Convention could definitely be described as an experience- both the great & the bad. There wasn't as much time spent in San Diego as I expected since the convention resort was held away from downtown or the beaches so it was hard to escape. Nevertheless, we were still able to visit places, namely Mission Beach, Jimmy Love's in the gas lamp district, a couple other bars, Pacific Beach, Balboa Park in general, & the zoo.
The best night out was when after the bar kicked everyone out at 1:30am (what??) we picked up a six pack & hung out on Pacific Beach by Crystal Pier. I wish I could have taken a picture but it was gorgeous- big & bright moon, watching the waves break, being able to walk out farther than normal because it was during low tide, & seeing the city lights twinkle in the distance. Great place to reflect & I had some great company.
Best experience was getting to know better/meeting the UBC chapter (+ Alex). They were such friendly, kind, open, & fun people. They're definitely friends that I hope to keep in touch w/ & hopefully I'll be able to visit them soon!
Overall, I'm very much satisfied w/ the touristy things I did in San Diego, especially getting to eat delicious Mexican food (i.e. Mr. Roberto's & Sombrero's) but I think another important moment was when we stopped by In-N-Out. The place kicks McDonald's in the face, not that I guess that's really difficult. They're efficeint but it's true that they use fresh ingredients- after all, they slice the potatoes into fries right in front of you. Awesome. & pretty tasty. Not the best burger I've had but I enjoy the philosophy very much. Not to mention that it's a cheap price for a burger even in Michigan living standards (similar to a Five Guys cheeseburger for less than $4)
As you could probably guess, due to my complete lack of dietary concern I need to work out hahah. I'm already missing the weather back in SD which can be summarized into warm & sunny days, cool nights, & perfect.

Nocturne Op. 9 No. 2 - Chopin

One of my absolute favorite songs of all time. So classy...pun (un)intended? Can't decide on that.

I can half cross off learning how to drive a stick shift off my bucket list! Thanks to one of my soccer friends I've finally learned the basics like shifting gears & how to prevent the car from stalling. Exciting stuff. The next step is to find some one w/ a manual who's comfortable letting me take their car on the street which is going to be more challenging.

Intern vacation has started early: so I don't go over total hours for the program I don't have to work tomorrow...guess who was excited when she found out she got a week off. This guy.
Too much? Maybe the real question should first be if you get it?

Ready to explore & get acquainted w/ San Diego! Delicious Mexican food, beaches, & world famous parks/zoo here I come. But first, an excellent last day in Detroit filled w/ packing, relaxing, piano, sun, apartment hunting, friends, soccer, &  of course, beer after soccer. Seize the day.

Some Nights - Fun

This song reminds me a lot of the band Mika. Definitely enjoyable & an interesting music vid.

Went to my first random concert where I didn't know any of the artists this past Sunday & I'm pretty happy w/ how it turned out. Thanks to my friend Lance for introducing me to George Watsky.
Win #3 for Midtown over Cass Corridor (:  Looking forward to remembering my cleats for next game haha.
Gearing up for LKS convention/events & I'm getting more excited as the days wind down. But until then, time to take a run along the Riverwalk before it closes.

EDIT: Riverwalk run was great, I think I've found a new running buddy!
So creeping fb I saw one of my friends had an album about a semi-formal event for her sorority abbreviated 'ASA'
...I immediately thought that it was short for aspirin & was confused. My life has been ruined by pharmacy school.

Iron and Wine - Dia Frampton

Thoughts from my semi sober/tired mind:
-I have realized from all the pictures taken of me playing soccer that I look stupid when I'm concentrating
-Hanging out on the roof w/ my dad working on the windows Monday night was a really nice change of pace, I forgot how much I've missed being up there.
-Midtown win #2, hopefully we can keep it up!
-80s booty popping music is the way to go
-Seva has impressed me
-Ann Arbor is still one of my favorite places to visit
-I'm so screwed for work tomorrow...gotta be up in five & a half hours. Def went a little too hard tonight, oh well.
-Not sure how showering is going to go while sharing a room...hmmm.

It's Time - Imagine Dragons

I'm out of my cockroach infested apartment
Plus my new apartment has A/C + an awesome roommate!
Got my replacement driver's license finally
My OneCard (that was stolen but they decided to return) is getting mailed to me
Went to the Woodbridge street fair & salsa dancing this past weekend
Found a new favorite spot for cheesecake/food

July is already a much better month. Suck it, June.
Vulgarity ftw

Mad - Neyo

I know I've already used this song in a previous post but it's stuck in my head.

Well, a bit of an unpleasant first (& hopefully last): my car was broken into today while I was out to eat in Corktown w/ friends. At least I put the steering wheel lock on? Of note, they stole my phone, my replacement phone I bought yesterday, my camera, my backpack, my license, my watch, the mp3 audio cable, my mp3 from senior year of high school, & possibly my purse (hopefully it's at my apartment). They also stole all the napkins out of my console (hahah) & put the air refreshners back in the air vents even though I took them out.

...thanks for the consideration. It could've been a lot worse- though everything was expensive, it was also expendable. There were much more valuable things in my car to me, it's just unfortunate that they broke in while I was in the process of moving. At least my license can be renewed online as well, no need to sit in line at the secretary of state tomorrow. Just gotta take care of the phone, the car, & start moving tomorrow.


Silver linings are important. This entire last month has been awful & pretty stressful but hopefully there's a reset button after this incident.

The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars

I rolled the same ankle again on the same field...but not in the same spot. Thus, considered a success? Nevertheless, two significantly rolled ankles in three weeks probably isn't good, thankfully I made a doctor's appointment already for the previous time.

The time to move out of the cockroach infested apartment has finally arrived. Can't wait to be out of here soon!

Dreams - Fleetwood Mac

I am very, very confused.

I don't even know my name....WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE?!?!?!?! Just kidding.
But really, it seems like I'm at a few crossroads & it's time to reevaluate values/morals as well as make some realistic goals. Now to stop making excuses that I don't have the time to do these things.


Other than that I went to my first Detroit City FC game this past Saturday. At first I was disappointed by the level of play at first but it grew on me. Loved the energy of the fans. Besides, for $5 a game I'll for sure be at the next home game.

North - Phoenix

I should probably never celebrate my birthday again until we've reached an age where the objective isn't to obliterate the person.

A big thank you to everyone who came out last night, especially Vanya, DK, Sharon, & Jordan. Thankfully I was well enough to go to soccer practice this afternoon...where I rolled my good ankle hahaha. So now that's decently swollen. Oops?

Margaritaville - Jimmy Buffett

Well, it's more than safe to say I've neglected this for a while- the only reason why I'm updating this now is because I just ate & am waiting to digest some of this food before I go for a run. The last few weeks have been super busy but I wouldn't have it any other way. I've been juggling working full time w/ playing in a soccer league + practices, ultimate frisbee, LKS stuff, & taking names. The usual. Just kidding. Oh & I've been sick for the last week- fever, aches, & all. The funny thing w/ being ill this time around is that I can tell when I need to blow my nose based on how poor my hearing starts to get...it probably has to do w/ fluid build up & poor drainage. Gross, but kinda interesting. Anyways, here's some food for thought (at lease for me)

1) Do you think that when Bruno Mars writes songs he laughs as he does so because he's thinking about all the girls who are going to fall for his lame lyrics & subsequently want to have sex w/ him?

2) How many times do you you see the same cars every day on your way to work? Everyone typically leaves about the same time on the same days, I wonder how many times we've passed the same people. For that matter, think about some one you met in the last few years who was from your hometown (yes I have some one in mind but it applies to everyone). How many times do you think you've seen them in your life before that point but you never noticed because they were just another face in the crowd?


Other than that, I'm excited for...two days off in a row! Yes, this is a rarity. So pumped, I'm totally taking these days to do everything I've been neglecting such as all the healthy food in my fridge. Plus some running, maybe some napping, definitely some cleaning, & catching up/hanging out w/ friends & such. The people watching tonight is going to be great, the hoedown is this weekend apparently. Can't wait!

Also, special thanks to Jordan for being a BFFFFF & making up for my extreme laziness/indecisiveness.


PS- that awkward moment when the part of your butt that got burnt weeks ago starts peeling.

Hey Jude - The Beatles

When I stop getting lazy, I'll post something more substantial.

Day 2 of working consecutive 11 hour shifts.

Testify - Rage Against the Machine

First day on the job today! So begins my 10 week run w/ Target Pharmacy part two. I'm sad to be leaving my old store but am looking forward to the opportunities & experiences I'll gain w/ a new team at a busier location. Hopefully I'll be able to do more counseling & get more comfortable w/ patient interaction as well as conquer billing (the headache of any pharmacist).

Second game of the soccer season is tonight against Chinatown! Ironically, I don't think anyone on their team is Asian but I'll know for sure in a few hours. Can't wait to play in this game- no ultimate today means no messed up knees. Yeah!

Shake it Off - Mariah Carey

I have no idea why that song is stuck in my head.

For those of you that don't know, I've lived in my apartment for about three weeks now & we definitely are waging war against German cockroaches. It took a while to figure out what they were- namely because they don't look like the conventional ones & they only hung out around the kitchen at night. After a call to the landlord & some roach poison it looked like things were getting better as we saw less come out every night. Then I found one on my bed two nights ago. Touche, roaches.
Also, seriously gross. Which is why I moved the majority of my stuff home in sealed boxed w/ roach poison in it so I hopefully don't bring them w/ me wherever we move to next.

This Will Be (An Everlasting Love) - Natalie Cole

You know your sunburn is bad when the difference between your skin that was covered & your burnt skin is the same contrast between the meat & fat of bacon strips.
That probably was a weird analogy but was the first thing that came to mind.

Day 2 of sunburn: ohhhh god, I completely forgot how much sunburns suck. I don't think I'm going to be lying on my back for a while.

Santeria - Sublime

Well, after what was a long time (three weeks) of no significant sports injuries while playing ultimate two times a week, soccer, & running, I've finally done myself in. Our first soccer game of the season is in four hours & I can't move my knee without pain even w/ a brace on. The hobble is back in full force, but hopefully throwing a heat pack on it will help.

Until then, it looks like today will be reading & cereal in bed. Holla.
Lastly, I want to acknowledge that this is the closest I've come to losing my voice ever. It's been compared to smoking a few packs a day for years...so ladies, I know you'll find it sexy. Get at me.

The Walk - Mayer Hawthorne

That awkward moment when a mariachi band personally serenades you w/ songs described as romantic because they think you're on a date & the friend you're eating w/ only encourages them to do more.


I finally understand how to play minesweeper! After almost 22 years. Yup.

Two Princes - Spin Doctors

That moment when you finally find your charger a week after moving (& keeping your phone off to save the battery)...but you can't find your phone.

Hahahah. I'm dumb.

Shimmer - Fuel

Laundry day at the parents' + delicious lunch (:

Pharm fest was great yesterday, got to meet some really cool P1s & I look forward to working w/ them in the fall!

This lovely gem was waiting for me in my inbox this morning:

1) I hope this doesn't become a yearly tradition

2) This reaffirms why I delete people like this in the first place

Tip for everyone reading: if you are deleted off some one's fb that you haven't talked to years, have some class & leave it be. Especially when you were only acquaintances, they don't respond to your "omg you deleted me wtf" message, & if you've already sent a message like that before. It's frankly annoying, pathetic, & creepy.

Here's also to hoping I wasn't stalked enough where he can read this. However, if this is you I'm talking about, sorry for the potential embarrassment but please take this in no way subtle hint & chill out.

Nothing From Nothing - Billy Preston

Well, as you can probably tell from how little I've been posting that I've been making up for lost time in my social life. I haven't had a day where I've had the time to sleep in between the pharmacy end of the year bar crawl, watching the Avengers, my best friend's graduation, moving apartments (which is still a huge mess), LKS stuff, & other things I've been putting off for a while like a dental & ophthalmic appointment. Tomorrow & Friday are no exceptions between lunch dates, pharm fest (pre-orientation orientation, if that makes sense, for the incoming P1s), catching up w/ old friends, & four birthday celebrations.
Tonight, however, I'm looking forward to cleaning up at least a few rooms of the apartment & finishing up this book I was recommended.

My internship should probably start earlier or else I'm going to go broke from all this money I'm spending. Good times vs bank account. Touche.

Isn't She Lovely - Stevie Wonder

Well, here goes nothing. See you guys on the other side! Hopefully finishing off w/ a successful semester.

Still - Matt Nathanson

Another funny story about my grades...
We have this class called patient care lab where you learn mostly clinical skills such as patient counseling, setting up IV drips, compounding medications (basically mixing etc if it's not something that a company manufactures), & physical exams such as blood pressure, skin & extremities, lung, heart, abdomen, neurological, etc. At the end of the semester we have practicals where any of the skills we've learned from that semester or the one prior can be tested & we won't know what it'll be until we walk in the room or five minutes before. You can imagine it's a little nerve wracking. Anyways, the way we're evaluated is a P for pass & R for repeat. If you have one R you have to come in at a later date to redo the station you failed- if you fail again you can be held back a year. If you have two Rs you have to redo all six practical stations. Three Rs...I have no idea what happens.
To give you a background, I've always had to repeat a practical station so my main goal was to pass every one for our last set.

When I was checking my grades I saw I had Ps and Hs next to the stations & I was really confused because I didn't know what H meant. I really thought it stool for hold as in I did so badly that I'd have to talk to the professor about it- what made it worse is that there were three of them. But I happened to look at the bottom of the page which had my final grade. I kinda stared at it, realized I got an A, & was shocked. Then I realized that H means honors hahaha. As in if you exceed the expectations of the evaluator you receive this mark, three of them (without a repeat) means you get an A in the class.
What makes it hilarious is that I thought I completely failed, I'm going to give myself a heart attack.
...I have to say this...but at least if I do (get a heart attack) I'll know what kind of drugs to give myself based on my EKG! I probably lost you guys there. Sorry.

Two more days. Need a 50% to pass. Hanging in there, kinda. My mind has checked out so it's time to reel it back in.


Edit: Is it sad that I crack myself up w/ weird things I write in my notes that I forget about then rediscover it as I study? Today's example- in talking about modifiable risk factors for stroke, hypertension is one of them. My notes: "everyone gets it when they're old. Like herpes."
I'm still laughing. I know I have issues. In fact, I'll probably look back on this post & think I'm the dumbest person ever but in this moment, I still find it (myself?) funny.

Never Had a Dream Come True - S Club 7

Throwback song, holla.

I've been eating weird combinations of things lately (i.e. raspberry yogurt & green tea for breakfast) but surprisingly, I've found that a sandwich w/ only avocado & pepper jack tastes pretty good.
Anyways, the best thing I've made recently is hands down a steak sandwich: angus ribeye steak cooked to medium rare in an onion-poppyseed bun (I almost typed poopyseed. I'm immature but hahah). So dericious. Yes, I engrished on purpose.

We've finally reached the homestretch! One exam tomorrow & our last one of the semester on Thursday! Of course I'll be studying like crazy until then but man, I'm so happy this point in time has arrived. It's going to be a great summer, just gotta get through these last two relatively small obstacles. If I get a 51% on the exam tomorrow I'll only need a 60% to pass the final on Thursday. Hopefully I can do better on the first one so I can slack on the beast of a cumulative final.

Good luck to everyone on their finals! Or, if you're Jordan, learning how to write B- (woof.)

One More Try - George Michael

Today was my last p4 shadow! As usual I was watching him do a work up of the patients on his floor (this time it was cardio) & he points out a patient that's been hospitalized for his fourth heart attack from smoking crack.
Sidenote: yes, cocaine can cause a heart attack no matter how you get it into your system. Basically it prevents the reuptake of a neurotransmitter (chemical that triggers your neurons) which causes the euphoria...but it also makes your heart beat faster & constricts your blood vessels eventually causing vasospasms which will lead to a heart attack.
Anyways, so apparently the attending phsyician told this patient to stop smoke weed instead.
Ridiculous story, but also makes sense- if he's addicted & Going to smoke something, better something that's a lot more benign than crack.

Last set of practicals tomorrow! Two more exams after that standing in my way between relative freedom (:
Can't wait. It's going to be hard to stay motivated in these last few days but I'm pretty sure everything will work out just fine.

Only the Good Die Young - Billy Joel

If nothing else, pharmacy school has taught me that a man's tie should reach the very top of his belt buckle. A length too short or too long is now seen as ridiculous, and to pull out some gamer terms, n00bish.

Let Me Blow Ya Mind - Eve feat. Gwen Stefani

Pretty sure I'm the only person at the med school right now. Yes, it's close to 4am on a late Friday night/early Saturday morning.

I'm so cool. The only solution- have a dance party to early 2000 pop songs. The song of this post is one that I heard everyday on my way to school for months. Thanks 95.5 & my middle school carpool.

Control Myself - LL Cool J feat. JLo

Throwback song.

Won this bad boy at the APhA end of the year raffle!

Although I'm totally nerding out, I'm really excited/happy I won this book (reference?) because it's the 2012-2013 edition of every drug out on the market & just about everything else you can imagine- interactions w/ other drugs, brand names, side effects, etc. Great success.

And LKS repping (is it just me or does this completely go against my character?).

And for the record, I'm wearing shorts.

First round of practicals are done! Not sure I passed all the stations, but I'm also finding it hard to care. Only three stations left next Thursday until I'm done forever! Can't wait.

Cardio exam 3 & the professional development final coming up next week as well. The official countdown of deadlines is now: four more exams, one more round of practicals, one more clinic visit, & one more P4 shadow! ...Along w/ all the evalue journal entries I've neglected to do. Oops? (:

15 calendar days left, 11 semester days. Let's do this.

Looking at my posts I realized I didn't mention this: got a B on my last cardio exam! What's up.

Intergalactic Human - DJ Earworm

Play in adult soccer rec league, get our asses kicked. Get recognized by the girls on the opposing team as a WSU student from a game or two of IM co-ed soccer in the fall. Offered a position on the university's women's club soccer team.
Gotta love how life works.

I'm feeling good, so looks like it's time for post-midnight run number two coming up. Should I be studying instead? Of course.


Also, props to Bill Cosby (& apparently Bill Maher for this): http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/cutline/cosby-george-zimmerman-guns-not-race-real-issue-184628189.html
Lastly, the lady I tutor told me one of the funniest but also unnecessary stories of how her boyfriend cheated on her. Probably no blog appropriate though

Come Home - One Republic feat. Sara Bareilles

I don't come back to my hometown a lot, much less go to the public library. Yet, when I do it seems like they always have a used book sale....& they always get me. I'm such a sucker for somewhat promising books for $2. I impulse bought a live recording of a blues session so we'll see how that goes.

Aaand I just ran into my parents who happened to stop by, however, the only way I knew they were here was because I heard some one sniffling & thought about my dad. The first time I looked around, I didn't see anyone but after a few times I looked over a few shelves & saw him reading a magazine. Yeah, I figured out my dad was here based on how he breathes. That's probably when you know you're family.
Some one has been walking by me every so often & staring or picking through books on the shelves right around where I'm sitting. Not to mention that he just sat down directly to my right, so if I go missing, you'll know why (:


Looking forward to playing some soccer tonight! Let's hope I'm not too out of shape, I had a great post midnight (more specifically, 1:30am) run last night but that was the first time I did anything for a few weeks

In My Head - Jason Derulo

First passed PPS quiz since our OTC module! AKA last October. Needles to say, I'm pretty stoked.

I've also found another missing Cadbury Egg from a couple Fridays back. Success! Just to finish relisten to lectures, take a run, & today will go down as a very productive/relaxing/awesome (AKA perfect) day.

Audience of One - Rise Against

You know you're lazy when you put off eating even though you have to spend the next four hours at school.

Crawling Towards the Sun - The Hush Sound

JC has just finished her exam, her options for the rest of the day are as follows. Select the appropriate treatment and outline appropriate dosing, duration, and monitoring considerations.
A) sleep
B) work on informatics
C) go to the bar w/ the P1s
D) relisten to Monday's lecture which will be on exam 3
E) study for the upcoming quiz
F) work on her DRP table
G) start outlining for practicals
H) all of the above
I) none of the above
J) more than one answer is correct

From your answer above, are there any interactions w/ her current state: tired, hungry, lazy, and somewhat apprehensive? If so, provide an alternate therapy.


JC's results have just come back. As far as the MC choice part, she scored a B! What is the appropriate follow up?
(It's so weird talking in 3rd person)

For the record, the answer to the MC question above is: J -  choices A, B, & C are all correct.


Go Wings! Playoffs tonight (:

Public Service Announcement - Jay-Z

Late nights at the med school, I'm starting to become nocturnal. Or extremely sleep deprived to the point where I won't be able to wake up unless there's sunlight shining in my face...along w/ five alarms set hahah.

I'm a group leader for a semester long project in one of my classes so I'm responsible for emailing the prof our presentations etc. The last powerpoint (yay!) was due last Friday although the actual presentation is today (Tuesday). Since then, I sent him an updated version since the wrong one was sent in the first place, oops. Today (technically yesterday AKA Monday), after meeting w/ the members who were going to present they wanted to make more corrections. So I emailed/called my prof's office phone to make sure it was alright even though the changes were so last minute & I told him to call me. Well, I ended up taking a nap & guess who called me back.

The awkward moment when your professor calls you on your cell phone & you answer dazed/confused and have no idea what was said in the first 30 seconds of the conversation. Hope it wasn't anything too embarrassing haha.


PS- I continued my (Cadbury) Easter egg hunt today... I found one caramel egg! One down, six to go. If you're confused, see the post below

Kiss From A Rose - Seal

^ Remember that song? Definitely childhood material.

Happy Easter everyone! Aaaand here's what the definition of today has turned into for me

Cadbury's Easter egg candy, probably one of the best things ever. Like a true healthcare student, I bought three bags at work today hahah.

I miss the Easter egg hunts my mom used to do for my brother & me, though I'm not sure if I had more fun hiding them or looking. Nevertheless, good times.

Friday night was Kappa Psi's fundraiser & there were so many awkward things that happened but great stories such as...

The car filled w/ guys when after I parked behind them, one of them walked right up to my window, stared at me, walked to the passenger side, stared at him, & tried to sell us weed. Hahah. Oh Detroit.

It's ironic that I would mention how much I miss Easter egg hunts given what happened after I wrote that because guess who just went on an Easter egg hunt courtesy of the cats? This girl.

Annie brought me about seven Cadbury eggs before we went to Pub Rub and I left them in the living room. Just now I went to move them to my room and there was one left and the bag was on the ground. After checking w/ everyone who was over that they didn't take them, I'm pretty sure the cats thought they were toys or something. Hopefully they don't chew through them. Time to look some more. So ridiculous haha.

Lastly, the lady I tutor brought my an Easter basket today! So sweet.

No Reason - Sum41

Breaking news! I don't get jittery & fall asleep within half an hour of drinking anything w/ caffeine! Slowly being sensitized. This is a good thing as long as I don't become one of those people who are addicted to 4398205832904 cups a day. However, I refuse to drink coffee. So gross.

As a side note, double fisting Mexican hot chocolate and green tea w/ roasted brown rice. Awwww yeah, sugar overload + ADH inhibition! Looking forward to tomorrow night when I can replace two "stay awake to study" drinks w/ those of the recreational variety. Going to be a good break from the crazy study schedule, hopefully the hard work this past week pays off. I'm also apparently a huge fan of coffee shop music, the stuff they've been playing (Sara Bareilles, Coldplay, Ingrid Michaelson, Norah Jones, Etta James etc.) is one set I love to listen to for studying. Well done.

I look unhappy but it's really the tired showing 

Yeah school!

Everlong - Foo Fighters

Starting to feel the crunch of my second cardio exam. Time to lock it down and own this next one.
I looked at my planner today for the remainder of the semester, which is exactly 30 days away by the way. Three presentations, five exams, two quizzes, and two rounds of practicals stand in the way of me & P3 year.
Twelve dragons to slay. Subsequently, I'm probably going to be MIA for a little, wish me luck!

To Be With You - Mr. Big

What a weekend it's been (so far); it's pretty much has been about rediscovering.
Yesterday was the first time I've been to Funk Night in over a year & it was just as fun as I remembered. It was great to hang out & dance to a live band. It's always a plus that there isn't a set "style" of dance, moreover, no one judges you for whatever style you choose. Really fun. Not to mention running into other friends randomly.
Tonight was the first time in a very long time (years) that I actually enjoyed playing soccer & also walked away not feeling destroyed (injuries etc). Moreover, I'm grateful/happy for the kind of people on the team. It's nice to see that they care about winning but are still supportive & don't get in each others' faces or the refs whining about rules & whatnot. That combined w/ the fact that I'm actually in decent shape & can keep up w/ everyone makes me really excited to play more. Yay!

Aaaand to finish out the night, it's time to clean my room. I'm going to be extremely happy when this is finished because it's been a long time coming. Whoo.

The Sound of Settling - Death Cab for Cutie

If you ever wondered where the X's on the under 21's at bars/clubs originated, I give you this from Wikipedia (under article "Straight Edge")

The letter X is the most known symbol of straight edge, and is sometimes worn as a marking on the back of both hands, though it can be displayed on other body parts as well. Some followers of straight edge have also incorporated the symbol into clothing and pins. According to a series of interviews by journalist Michael Azerrad, the straight edge X can be traced to the Teen Idles' brief U.S. West Coast tour in 1980.^[39] The Teen Idles were scheduled to play at San Francisco's Mabuhay Gardens, but when the band arrived, club management discovered that the entire band was under the legal drinking age and therefore would be denied entry to the club. As a compromise, management marked each of the Idles' hands with a large black X as a warning to the club's staff not to serve alcohol to the band. Upon returning to Washington, D.C., the band suggested this same system to local clubs as a means to allow teenagers in to see musical performances without being served alcohol.^[39] The Teen Idles released a record in 1980 called Minor Disturbance with the cover shot being two hands with black X's on the back.^[3][40] The mark soon became associated with the Straight Edge lifestyle.^[3]

Arms - Christina Perri

While studying w/ a friend....
"Are you sure you're studying? You're laughing a lot"
"Yeah, I am"
"Did you write something funny in your notes?"
"No, it's more like that feeling you get when you want to bang your head against the table repeatedly"

Well said, friend, well said. Exam #1 of cardio module coming up in about seven hours, not sure this one's going to be pretty. Here's to hoping for the best!

American Girl - Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers

Food for thought: one argument many pro-lifers have is that ending a pregnancy might be a huge loss for society because one of these unborn babies could be the next Einstein/Mozart/Stephen Hawking/etc.
What if this baby already has been born? Would it really matter if they aren't given the tools to succeed? Which probably ties into the debate of nature vs nurture (whether nature or a person's environment ultimately shapes them). In general, I believe nurture strongly dictates choices & what kind of path some one takes in life. That being said, if the next genius is born in an oppressed area, would he necessarily be recognized or live as a contributing member of society if all he knows is being book smart isn't cool & could actually get him beat up while violence reins? Of course, there are many who rise above all adversity such as Cedric Jennings (biography titled A Hope in the Unseen), but as humans, we adapt to survive in our environment whatever that may be.

Basically, though I don't think a fetus/baby should be aborted because the mother simply sees it as an inconvenience even though she & possibly the father are able to provide and properly care for a baby, I think it's even more important to consider if the mother & father will be able to provide for the child and be able to raise them in such a fashion where he/she has the opportunity to excel to the best of his/her abilities. I've probably opened a can of worms & I'm not sure how this will go, but, it's time to end this post because there's already so much more content to this than I meant to have.

Family Affair - Mary J Blige

Must. Not. Fail. Cardio exam.

...Oh, it's so nice outside. Guess I'll play some ultimate instead!

Dancin' in the Moonlight - King Harvest

Well, firstly, it was really awesome to see so many people downtown last night- it actually felt like we lived in a city!
This weather is beautiful, however, I hope this doesn't mean we're going to have a hot summer. I went rollerblading earlier w/ a friend & I'm happy to say I'm improving! About 12 years after I first put on roller blades, I'm finally getting it. I think.

Lastly, this is one of the weirdest sandwich combinations but it strangely works really well: whole wheat bread, hummus, parmesan cheese, and a slice of turkey deli. Great snack. Nevertheless, I'm still hungry so I think it's time to scour the apartment for more quick edibles. And probably start studying for the first time this weekend really. Fail.


I noticed that my jaw hurts & was wondering what happened....until I just remembered that I got elbowed last nice haha. Classy.

Sweet Dreams - Pentatonix

The song of this post is a cover, but I like what they did w/ it. Anyways, it's finally spring! Highs in the 60s & 70s for the rest of the week w/ lows in the 40s. Love this weather. There's something about the warm & sunny outdoors that makes me want to eat healthier- I stop craving junk food/, sweets, or stuff from restaurants & start going to sandwiches, fruits, salads, & yogurt. More than likely it's some kind of natural human 'wiring' since before time we'd fatten up in the winter & whatnot.

Studying outside for the rest of today is going to be awesome. Until it gets dark. Woof. (<- for Jordan)

The Cave - Mumford & Sons

First day back! Though it's already quite a bit of material to process, I'm ready to be productive again. After a week of relaxing & doing nothing related to school, it feels good to have responsibilities albeit self imposed. Let's hope I can make it through the next three weeks relatively sane between classes, projects, meetings, assessments, assignments, shadowing, & community service. Oh, and studying. Can't forget that.

Vegas - Sara Bareilles

Well, I guess I should've stared informatics earlier...as not less than 12 hours before classes start again. Oops? No major regrets over it though, this was an amazing break, I was able to do so many things I've been wanting to do for a while. Hiking was obviously one of the big ones. Other than that, spending time w/ my friends that I don't have a chance to see that often because we go to different schools or they have jobs now. I worked to make some extra money, got in some ultimate, enjoyed the beautiful weather, got bubble tea, read, & went salsa dancing. Though I never quite got a full night of rest, I'm incredibly satisfied w/ this spring break. Unfrotunately, it's probably time to start doing this assignment. Or maybe finish my book. Hah. Priorities are in the wrong spot...until tomorrow at 1pm.

I Can't Make You Love Me/Nick of Time - Bon Iver

^ Beautiful piano cover of Bonnie Raitt's song; I wish he lowered the key for his voice but nevertheless, pretty to listen to.

More importantly, I passed infectious diseases! Yay! I was preparing to sell my life for a month but I'm super relieved to find out that I have more options. Spring break has been good to me this year.


A word of advice, just in case you forgot or never knew, it's a terrible idea to dive on turf when there isn't a layer of clothing between you & fake grass. Day two of intense stinging & weeping wounds.

More Than Words - Extreme

Home sweet home. Just got back from Kentucky! As sad as I am that we left when the weather was warming up, I'm glad to be home. It was a great trip filled w/ "real" (AKA challenging) hikes as well as memories that will stay w/ me for a while. I'll throw some pictures up here later. For now, time to wash off the sweat from this morning's hike & bed. I just realized I didn't really go into what we did/where we went. If you really care to know, click here.

EDIT: Some of my favorite pictures from the trip. There's going to be a picture of a girl's head in a few of them- she's a good friend of ours who sadly couldn't make the trip w/ us

Mammoth Cave National Park- trails around the visitor's center

 

Mammoth Cave National Park- New Entrance Cave Tour

Mammoth Cave National Park- backpacking trails

hahaha, so random.

Cumberland Gap National Park- Chadwell Gap Trail

Cumberland Gap National Park- Hensley Settlement

Cumberland Gap National Park- Pinnacle Outlook

Cumberland Gap National Park- roadside trail

Cumberland Gap National Park- Saddle Gap

Cumberland Gap National Park- Tri State Peak view 

I'm Glad You Came - The Wanted

Yeahhhhh spring break! Hiking & caves galore (:
Though I've got to say, we were pretty fortunate where we stayed last night- a tornado touched down about 15 minutes away from our hotel.

Time to take a hint from my snoring best friend & go to sleep

What Doesn't Kill You (Stronger) - Kelly Clarkston

I will pass all my exams. I will pass all my exams. I will pass all my exams.


I hope I pass all my exams.

Honeybee - Blake Shelton

Some one please help. Zero motivation to study = not good = I'm definitely going to regret this later (but at this moment I can't seem to care)

Shake That - Eminem feat. Nate Dogg

Song is a bit more than inappropriate but a something catchy is definitely needed since I'm running on 20 minutes of sleep. The point of this post: I love Cafe con Leche. For everyone who lives in Detroit, it's in Mexicantown on Vernor across from Clark Park. I didn't go here that often last semester as they used to close at 5pm on weekdays (bummer) but I just found out they stay open until 7:30 now! Yay! Such a great atmosphere- plenty of tables, wifi (obviously), friendly patrons and barista, and ridiculously cheap drinks that are of such high quality. As recommended I tried the Chocolate a la Taza, which isn't for some one who doesn't like chocolate, & though it's a little more thick than what I would like it's still delicious. And, as I've just been told, a traditional breakfast drink from Spain. Yeah, I can definitely see myself coming here more.

But that doesn't really matter. You. Visit this place, you'll love it. Anddd back to eavesdropping on the Detroit discussion two strangers are having haha. Oh, & studying. Duh. Psh.

Kaleidoscope - Blink 182

Going on seven hours at the UGL. Staying awake in class tomorrow will be murder but if I have a good idea of the HIV drug classes, adverse effects, side effects, unique characteristics, and therapies/dosing regimens it'll be worth it. Time to get that B on the final. And fit in studying for a midterm the day before. And memorize about 39402893024832 guidelines for an exam two days after. No big.

Don't. Panic. Just. Do.
....AHHHHHHHHHHHH


EDIT: leaving the library at 6am to get ready for class, lolsleep. What is that again? Total time spent studying HIV & vaccines at the library- 11hrs. Definitely am feeling more comfortable so at least it was worthwhile

(If You're Wondering If I Want You To) I Want You To - Weezer

Long name of the song. Anyways, last night was my first time at a club & though it's not really my kind of place, it'd be nice to go every so often. There must be some kind of record I set. Apparently some guy was being super creepy when I was dancing so a friend told him I wanted him to leave. After that I heard him refusing and then when I looked over next another friend was blocking a punch. Bodies in between and shouting ensued. Testosterone. Sigh. But, nevertheless, thanks guys for looking out for me!

Take Me the Way I Am - Ingrid Michaelson

Dear exam gods,

Although I realize this attempt is more than likely futile, please let me somehow pass my exam in less than an hour. In payment, I offer my first child. Just kidding, but really, if you could help me out I'd appreciate it.

Jo

Just the Way You Are - Billy Joel

Happy VD! I always thought I was so clever in high school for saying that, since it could also stand for venereal diseases. Har har.
Anyways, another successful presentation today despite a sore throat! I don't have stage fright but this class can be somewhat intimidating because the professor will usually pick apart at any statement if he sees a weakness in it. However, my group prepared so well and he really only asked basic questions that were already talked about so it was an easy Q&A afterwards. Not that I think you really care about that.

I feel as if today is an obligatory post day. I don't want to rant about how dumb I think Valentine's Day is (especially since now that I'm not in a relationship, I would sound incredibly bitter), but rather how today helped me realize how content I am. Going into this week, I wasn't really sure how I'd take not having a date. For everyone unaware of my dating history, this is the first Valentine that I've been single for since 2006. However, the more I thought about it though, the more I realized that I didn't want a "Valentine". I've finally reached the point of my life that I've always wanted to be at: happy with myself; not needing some one else to be happy. I remember one of my good friends telling me once that to really truly be happy, you first have to achieve this feeling from within before passing it onto others and allowing it to be shared. Back then, I didn't really understand what he meant, I was always laughing and joking around with others, they seemed to enjoy my company and I enjoyed theirs. It really took my last break up to grasp everything. There's been a few bumps, no more than what the average person would expect, but being single is a whole lot more satisfying than I ever thought it would be. In a sense, I'm my own Valentine this year, and I love it. I love me and I don't want anyone else. In no way do I feel lonely or sad that there isn't some one to send me flowers, take me out to a nice dinner, or torrent movies while eating Marcus Market pizza on my bed. Such a powerful feeling.

I guess what I'm trying to say is for all the couples out there, I hope it's a great day. For everyone who's going stag (in essence), I hope that you're just as satisfied as I am.

Mad - Neyo

Spring break w/ the best friend is a go! Instead of sunny beaches, we're going for warmish weather, hiking, & cave spelunking. The latter being something I've always wanted to do. I hope it works out because I'm going to be one of the happiest people ever if this trip happens.

For the Nights I Can't Remember - Hedley

Late night thoughts: it's funny how as humans we're so focused on control when our existence is purely based on chance.

Exploring control...
we all are 'wired' (as my dad would say) w/ certain intrinsic traits. Two main ones are reproduction (the media is a key example of that) & power. Or so I believe.
Human societies have always been stratified into different levels even though we have different names for it. Though in theory, communism & utopian ideas should work, they always fail. Why? Because at the end of the day, there are the select few that are ambitious & want something more, whether that's a good or bad thing isn't something I want to get into. Going back to my point- humans like having control over other humans. There are examples all around us that we take as norms- having presidents/heads of state, bosses, so on. On a scientific scale (from a healthcare student, did you expect anything less?), genomic sequencing to predict what diseases and conditions we're more likely to. In essence, taking hold of our destiny by knowing what (could) lie ahead. Which, I'm not a fan of but that's another topic.
I'm also throwing out that there are essentially two types of humans in terms of control: those that lead and those who are allowed to be led- though I'm not really sure if the latter is a true group rather than a temporary thing. Which, technically means at some point we're being led & are leading. Circular. Or I'm just too tired to think correctly.

Anyways, on the chance part. There are literally billions of people on the planet. The fact that I exist, that I'm sitting here on my laptop typing this kinda weird blog post, is really lucky. My parents happened to come together out of all the other possible people they could have been with. Furthermore, I was the product of one egg and one sperm. Notably, one sperm. Yes, at the back of my mind I'm saying "ew, gross" too, but bear with me. Even at conception, there were a million other possibilities, a million other 'me's that could be writing this entry. But somehow, I'm here.

Tying this altogether, even when it comes to reproduction we're trying to take control in a sense with genetic engineering- altering our offspring's traits or selecting a zygote to implant, what the parents consider the 'perfect baby'. But, when it really comes down to it, though we as a race are becoming ever more controlling (at least in the healthcare field with more drugs, treatments, and cures coming out for conditions), we really have no say in how we get there. We're at the mercy of our parents. And, especially for me, luck. My parents only wanted two kids and there was one on the way between my brother and I but my mom lost it. So here I am.


The putdown, "you're one load your mom should have swallowed," though somewhat comical and incredibly vulgar, was one of the few things that got me started thinking about this. If you wanted to know, which I'm not sure you did. Now that I probably made this post awkward like I inevitably do....it's time to stop typing & go to bed.

Sexual Healing - Marvin Gaye

Our exam results from last Friday were finally posted & I passed! Yay! Considering that I felt like throwing up for a good part of the exam & I got most questions right that most of the class got wrong, I'm pretty happy with my grade. This is the perfectionist talking, but I don't think I can quite say I'm satisfied. Hopefully that helps me focus for the exam in about a week & a half though.

In other news, there's either a dog whimpering, an intense farting session, or some really awkward sex noises going on upstairs.
Please, just stick singing Glee covers, upstairs neighbor.

I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz

My last compounding assessment! Making an IV bag prep: this one is normal saline & reconstituted vancomycin.

I've got to say, this was probably the most interesting compounding we had since we worked with both types of flow hoods (laminar and vertical for regular and chemo preps) and did the whole procedure including scrubbing & gowning up. Very cool.

Other than that, I'm going to try to tough out the lack of food I have until the weekend when I work haha. Basically that translates into lots of apples w/ peanut butter and grilled cheese sandwiches.

American Idiot - Greenday

I don't like posting about politics; even less, talking about a specific politician when there isn't a conversation/dialogue going on. However, I think this is post worthy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kxw4uZAezaI&feature=player_embedded
I realize I'm shedding more attention on his ad but I think it's important to see the basis of which I'm speaking from.
Firstly, there are better ways this guy could have gotten this message across.
For him & his supporters dismiss everyone calling the ad racist as ignorant democrats/liberals is something I find more offensive than the broken English and the not quite subtle stereotypical cues in the background (i.e. the gong, rice paddies, dirt road, and straw hat).
It's how ironic he claims to be frugal when he spent millions to get it played during the Superbowl in different regions of Michigan. Moreover, he charged his supporters a 'donation' of $7.50/view (per a local news station reports) to view this commerical before it aired on TV. Oh, can't forget that while he slams a current senator for investing too much money outside of Michigan, this ad was filmed in another state.
Overall poor choice to make this ad and even poorer defense/response to the backlash by some senator hopeful.

I Need a Girl (part 2) - P. Diddy

I'm not really sure what Puff Daddy/P. Diddy/Diddy/etc goes by anymore but Pandora credits him as such above so maybe that's time era appropriate?

Nine hours logged at the med school study tonight. Class in three hours- assessment in about four hours. Haha we'll see how this goes.
I'm not really sure how to put this without coming across as melodramatic...but I really hate it when I catch people in a lie. Really puts a damper on the whole friendship thing, especially since I try to make it clear that I just want an honest (even if it's brutal) answer instead of a classic lame excuse. Maybe I'm not being clear enough.

You Make Me Feel - Cobra Starship feat. Sabi

From snowy slush on Sunday to a beautiful 50F Tuesday...36 hour turn around. Michigan you crazy!

I definitely took advantage of the weather & took a nice run around Midtown w/ a friend. Hopefully everyone in the area has a chance to as well!

Now that I'm destressed for the day, time to focus on memorizing all those drugs. Yeaaah.


PS- it's my roommate's birthday! He's old! Yay!

Hey Mama - Mat Kearney

I love getting angpo, especially when I don't expect it any more. Happy year of the Dragon! I'm pretty sure I've been a bad Asian in failing to mention this earlier, but Chinese New Year started this past Monday. Yay!

Only Wanna Be With You - Hootie & the Blowfish

Intense chip craving close to 4am. Time to go to sleep? Probably.

River Flows in You - Yiruma

Everyone please check out the following article, I think it's perfect (yes, even though the name of the website raised my eyebrows too): http://girliegirlarmy.com/lifestyle/20120120/the-problem-with-skinny-bashing/

Fatlip - Sum41

Thought of the day: is it ironic that fans of any celebrity (i.e. actor/entertainer/athlete) get upset that they're romantically involved w/ some one? Being a fan is supporting some one and his/her work so theoretically I feel that it should carry over somewhat to the point where fans should be happy for whoever they idolize if he/she is. Conversely, I understand the jealousy that they person they think is 'perfect' or whatever isn't with him/her, but really, who wants to date some one who's a hater & rags on a relationship?

EDIT: I wanted to expand on this idea a little. So many girls hate it when their celeb crush starts dating some one, mostly because they wish the guy was interested in her. Why? Probably because of his looks and because of a song he wrote/movie he acted in. Where exactly do they draw their inspiration and actions, from real life. From the person that makes them happy. The person that his fans hate because he's w/ her. But it's through these actions that strangers like him. Circular thoughts. By the way, the songs/acting is strictly speaking for the lovey dovey stuff. I don't think many girls will "fall in love" w/ some one who screams about how much he hates her

Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap

First exam of the semester down & passed! Although I've gotta admit, for studying an average of 8 hours a day I didn't expect to score below average. Haha, oh well. At least I still passed so I really shouldn't complain

Whole wheat bread. Cracked pepper turkey. Sliced grape tomatoes. Scrambled egg. Baby spinach. Provolone cheese. The only thing separating my sandwich from epicness is avocado. Next time...until then. Study times. First exam of the semester on Monday & 36 questions will be extraced from material, that when printed out, is over three inches stacked up on top of each other.

EDIT: I just realized I'm so into studying I didn't even put a song. Oh well.